Saturday, August 19, 2006

Stressed Out?

I’m feeling a little haggard and stressed lately. It seems I have turned into a worry-wart. :-( I know I shouldn’t be like this. I would like to believe that most of the time I feel that I am in control of all the comings and goings in my life. I usually just go with the flow and live life to the fullest.

Well, they say that the best way to surmount stress is to know what causes it and beat it. But I can’t figure out what caused this kind of dramatic stress. Let me think….

It might be caused by the high demand of work completion in the office. I’ve been assigned to a new project since this month started. I was given the dimensioning task and I will be working on my own since everybody’s hands seem to be full as well. After a week, I was again assigned a different task which was perfectly fine for me as I really don’t want to be stuck in the dimensioning thing. It’s not that work here is rubbing me off like in my previous company since the deadline here is very reasonable that you can still afford to take things slow just so you’ll get occupied for the rest of the week. Yeah! Work is challenging but its getting uncomplicated as I go along. And the most important thing is that I am enjoying it. So I suppose this has not contributed much to my so-called stress.

Then it got me thinking that things were a little busy these past weeks since almost every being in the office are out for their holidays! The only person who seems not to have any summer holiday planned is…ME! Poor me! Now I understand the weird look on my manager’s face when I told him that I’ll be taking my 5-week vacation at the end of the year. He even suggested that I take a couple of weeks off this summer and the remaining 3 weeks on December. Maybe he thought that I was too daft to miss the all-important summer heat. Hehe! Now I realized what he was pointing out. It’s just too stressful to think how the others are enjoying their work-free holidays while I toiled my self with office work. Hehe!

But I have a very good reason for taking all my holidays at the end of the year. I will be making a giant leap advancing to the next level of my life. I am super-duper excited that it usually wakes me up from my slumber and I am having this unexplainable feeling that makes me want to smile, laugh, giggle, cry or wail. Or even all at the same time. Hehe!!! I keep on looking forward to that glorious day, the 17th of December!!! On the contrary, thinking about the preparations and all the things that need to be settled, I sometimes wish that I’d still have the luxury of time. It’s true what they say that planning and preparing for that dream event are exciting and nerve-racking at the same time especially on my part that I am here on at the other side of the world. It’s just so stressful thinking about the what-ifs and what-nots. But everytime I think about how taxing all these planning and organizing for me, I realized how hard it is for Zach to be the one in charge of everything out there even when it comes to my frock. To think that he is a guy and knowing guys, they sometimes have very limited tolerance for details especially THOSE details. Thank God for him, it made me appreciate him more and made me think that indeed I will be making a good decision of spending my lifetime with him.
Having said all of these, I think stress is just all in the mind. I have a lot to look forward to and I don’t need stress to waste my time into. I think I’ll just go with the flow…enjoy every moment of it. As for the summer holiday that I never had…well, it’s not too late especially that my friend from my previous company is here for a vacation… I’ll be contented with a weekend getaway though.;-)

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